Have Mercy on Me

Today I am crying over I Timothy 5:1,2, "Do not rebuke an older man but encourage him as you would a father, younger men as brothers, older women as mothers, younger women as sisters, in all purity. " And, II Timothy 2:22-25, "flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace along with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart. Have nothing to do with foolish ignorant controversies; you know that they breed quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth, and they may come to their senses and escape form the snare of the devil, after being captured by him to do his will."

I have been hurt this morning in 2 separate situations by people who are well over 50 years old. I am screaming out, "Grow up! You are 50+ years old. Shouldn't you be leading the way in maturity? By now you ought to be teaching me how to love my husband and children and how not to be controlled by my passions?" I believe both parties should. But, they aren't.

And, today is a gift to me from my God. How will I respond?

The Bible is so practical. I want to tell people that the Older Women should be teaching the Younger like II Timothy says. And, I am longing for it. I wish for help.

But, there is much written to the younger women on their way to be the older women. God have mercy on me the sinner. I want to flee my youthful passions. I want to flee the desire in me to rise up and deal harshly with an older man and an older woman. Oh God this is the path to MY MATURITY. I want to embrace you. I want Jesus to ooze out of my life. God give me grace today. Holy Spirit, have your way in my life and help me to bless and not to curse. Help me to love and not to hate. Help me to get the beam out of my eye and not the speck in my brother's eye. Help me to be ready to be the sage that I am longing to find.

Grateful for the little things

Today, I am glad that I can feel the touch of my husband's hand when he grabs mine. I can feel the sensation of water on my skin in the bath or the pool. I can feed myself. I can take care of my home.

I finished reading the autobiography of Joni Eareckson Tada. She has a beautiful story of God's grace. And, I want to be a recipient of God's grace in all that I do for His glory.